I'm

I was trying to find words to define myself, this is what is came up with.

I'm life, I'm death
I'm wary, I'm faith
I'm sane, I'm crazy
I'm fast, I'm lazy
I'm decent, I'm bad
I'm pensive, I'm glad
I'm honour, I'm compassion
I'm anxiety, I'm fascination
I'm want, I'm desire
I'm air, I'm fire
I'm water, I'm earth
I'm abundance, I'm dearth
I'm far, I'm near
I'm laugh, I'm tear
I'm fear, I'm joy
I'm straight, I'm coy
I'm one, I'm many
I'm common, I'm uncanny
I'm blood, I'm hide
I'm envy, I'm pride
I'm anger, I'm challenge
I'm remorse, I'm revenge
I'm warm, I'm cold
I'm faint, I'm bold
I'm guilt, I'm lust
I'm awe, I'm disgust
I'm curiosity, I'm relief
I'm suspicion, I'm disbelief
I'm wish, I'm will
I'm motion, I'm still
I'm here, I'm there
I'm now, I'm forever

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On the Point of No Return

Ever been in a position from where you can't turn your back? If your answer is yes, you can probably imagine how am I feeling right now! Sometimes in life you deliberately or circumstantially reach such a juncture that you must decide whether to move ahead in the direction or regress your steps backward to the point you were before. And sometimes when this point gets so excruciating and draggy that you seem to be in total Topsy-Turvydom. On top of that when you try your best to come out of this state the more you seem to be hauled within it and you never seem to get out of this.

You need to be bold and brave enough to advance, chickening out will probably never help. Maybe the goal you reach will be fulfilling or it might also be not be very satisfying but it always feels good that you have played your part and given the best you ever could. Sometimes putting a step in front is the smartest and maybe the only thing left for one to do. Getting out of the bedlam and moving forward is the only thing that could make you feel better. If you do not take your chance how will you be able to conclude that the other side of the fence will be green or just be full of dirt?

Don't know where I'll land up but finally on the verge of taking the plunge for my amelioration!

Bound in the Path of Eternity

Have you ever been in a situation when every moment feels infinite? Time runs so slow that every minute seems like days and a day seems like years. Running at full speed seems to be crawling; The state of endlessness is just unbearable and you never seem to reach your destination.



Well destination is something very important but its also the journey and I'll readily accept that you learn from not the destination but from the journey you have made and the road you had taken. Don Williams Jr., an American novelist and poet once said “The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.” This is true only when you try to learn from your mistakes and a person who commits the same mistake more that once can probably never come close to any destination of his/her life. At least from my knowledge I have never tried repeat my mistakes and probably never will in the future.

For me, life is always about making the best possible with what you have but after any mistake is the damage done is always irreparable? Will I ever be able to reach my destination? Trying is the only thing that I can do and I really hope that I reach my desired destination!

The Track Taken

My fortune today on orkut showed "The luck that is ordained for you will be coveted by others", this forced me to think and write this post. I wish my luck was really that good!

They say "Good things happen when you least expect it". I can't yet fathom that the thing which happened to me is good or bad but surely it was unexpected. Did Lady Luck had a part to play? Who knows, I just believe that I have changed my track for good and who knows if I'll have this opportunity again in the near future. The next few years are going to the the keystone of my future and I will give it the best that I possibly can.

Heading towards a new chapter of my life and I solemnly hope that I can make the best out of it.

The Flight of Dreams

This video says a lot about who I am and I liked it so much a put it up as my next post.

The Lock and The Key

This is a very strange and unusual story,
About a lock who never had a key.
It was secure and solid; heavy and hard;
But without a key, Lock felt really awkward.
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Very few keys could ever fit this lock
And every key-maker was out of stock
Lock was made using an unique system;
The mechanism of which was unknown to them.
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Many years passed and no key was found;
With nothing to do Lock just laid around.
Lock was kept along with chain and rope;
He lost his shine but never gave up hope.
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And then as on a blue moon's night,
Lock suddenly saw the most wondrous sight!
At some distance a thing glittered and gleamed;
There was the key Lock had always dreamed
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There was something different he could see,
Key was unique and rare as a key could be.
Lock thought that destiny was in his favour
Cause Key became his next door neighbour.
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Just one thing gripped Lock with fear;
If Key didn't fit, he would be broken forever.
Lock couldn't muster the courage to give it a try
And slowly and steadily time passed by.
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The key to itself was always there
But only thing he did was stand and stare;
And then came the dreaded day of action,
Lock had to move to a different location.
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Lock tried hard to keep Key out of his head
But Key was the only thing he remembered instead;
To only a question he still doesn't have the answer,
Will Lock and his Key be ever together?

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Do I have Superpowers?

Sometimes I feel that I have superpowers! Oh yes, you heard it right, SUPERPOWERS!

If every single wish of a person comes true, don't you think that he has superpowers? No, I don't have this power; I am a guy who is on the other side of the spectrum. I wish for something but land up getting odd things, not bad things all the time but surely ODD! You wish for something and you get something else in return. Maybe sometimes you get something good but one which you never wanted, will you be happy with it? And sometimes you end up with something that is your worst nightmare!

I call it negative superpower, one which always acts against you. No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to change its polarity.

To elaborate, Let us take the example of say Superman. Now say Superman was fighting with his archenemy Lex Luthor. Lex Luthor is sinister but merely a human being and is no match against the superhuman strengths of Superman. If Superman had negative superpowers, no matter how hard he tried to hit Lex Luthor he would end up injuring himself. Now isn't that nice, no wonder I'm not the creator of Superman.


I only wish that I could stop wishing anymore. But whatever the end result be - positive, neutral or negative, life goes on!

To Brace Or To Embrace

I wonder at times that does whining solve any problems? There are many kind of people in this world, some of them are always worried about what if this didn't happen, I didn't get this, if I could only have done that and blah blah blah. And then there are people who are wary head to toe about what they are going to do or end up doing.

Being cautious and being apprehensive are two opposite sides of a coin. Everybody needs to be cautious about what they end up doing but is it necessary to always be concerned? I don't think so. I believe if are someone is always concerned and wary about what he/she does; he/she misses out the important things in life. How many people still love to get wet in the rain rather than running into the shade? How many people want to run away from this urban jungle to a place where they can see the horizon in every direction? When was the last time anybody acted like a kid without even bothering what others thought about them? How can we call ourselves civilized and technocratic society if we are the ones who are responsible for killing our kind and waging wars against each other? We are always worried about the bigger things in life but we overlook the smaller minute stuffs which are more important to us!

Whenever you are going to do something or something is going to happen to you, you can do three things - One, run away and hide, which is totally out of the question for me. Two, you can brace yourselves and pray, a still "no no" for me and finally the third and only choice for me - you can embrace it, which according to me is the best and logical choice. If you face the situation and take responsibility for whatever has happened there is nothing like it. Facing the situation and standing up for yourselves has its own rewards. I have learned many things and came to know a lot more things about myself which I previously didn't know at all.

So continuing to embrace each day with no regrets!

Days Go By...

I have to say that I'm missing my college days and friends very much. For 4 years we had an awesome time together which I'm sure each one of us will never be able to forget. I only wish I had a time machine so that I could go back to relive those glorious days. After passing out everybody went in their own direction, some went abroad for higher studies and others let to a different city for jobs. Sometimes I wonder if we will ever get back together and get another opportunity to enjoy those moments once again?


On the other hand people say its not about the past and not even about the future, you must live your present and I'm enjoying every bit of it!

Just Checkin'

I'm back! Checking my page after quite a long time. Never even thought that I will be continuing or checking my so called "Blog" for a second time. Always found hard to write things down, oh yes, even in my exams. My exams are another chapter altogether which I might continue in time to come but not today.

Blogging

"I'm innocent, I don't need to confess, I have committed no crime at all!" Thats the first thing that came to my mind when my friends told me about starting my own blog.

But still they insist that I MUST have my blog. Why in the hell should I need a damn blog? Well who ever you are, if you are reading this I know you are confused, I know I am.

Never thought of writing my thoughts cause up till now thoughts were thoughts not something you put on the net for everybody to see. What the hell lets give it a try!